Voicemails

I don't really know what I'm doing yet, feel like I'm falling behind, everybody else gotta
Figure it out, but I'm still trying though, I ain't quit, I just, I just hope this mean
Something one day, I still hear them voicemail, playing back in my head, every word that was
Said, still stuck in my head, I don't run from the past, I leave that instead, every doubt that I
Heard, turn me into who I am, I remember that version of me, didn't know who I was, who I be
Had a weight I ain't talk about, had a war going on underneath, used to sit in my thoughts too long
Every doubt felt real, felt strong, every voice had something to say and I carried it all, I was
Wrong, I was breaking but it stayed composed, I was lost but I never showed, had to learn how to
Hold that pain, had to grow in a space that was cold, yeah, nobody saw that part, how I kept it
Together in the dark, now I look back at that version of me, that's the reason I move how I
Move from the start, be honest with yourself, this probably not gonna work, should have a backup plan
I mean, you're not really built for that, just keep it real, I still hear them voicemail, playing back in my
Head, every word that was said, still stuck in my head, I don't run from the past, I use that instead
Every doubt that I had, turned me into who I am, yeah, I heard all the doubt I absorbed back
Baby you can't do it, I stored that, turn it into drive now I move with it, every negative word I
Transform that, I don't need validation I'm past that, I don't answer opinions I pass that, if they
Talk I just let them talk, I don't argue, I outlast that, yeah, I been through Petra I learned from it
Every scar got a purpose I earned from it, everything that was meant to break me, on me built something stronger from it
Ayy, I don't know if you see it yet, but you're different, you got something in you, just don't stop, seriously don't stop
Every voice tried to define me, every doubt tried to go find me, every moment I felt lost still aligned me, even When I couldn't see it, there was time in there
Now I stand where I pay to be, but it came with a cost they don't see, every version of me had to die, just to build who I'm made to be
I don't hate on the past no more, I don't carry that weight no more, every voice that once broke me down, I would don't even shake me no more
I just move with a different mind, I don't rush, I don't chase the time, everything that I went through had a reason
I see the desire, still hear them voicemails, playing back in my head, every word they would say, still stuck in my head
I don't hear it the same, I don't feel it the same, everything that I heard put a fire in my name, I still hear them voicemails
But I don't break now, everything that I heard, got me here now
I make it further than I thought I would, and if you hear this, don't quit, later than you think